I turned 50 recently and I have thoughts of joy and sadness. Joy, because the Lord has given me, by His grace, 50 years to experience His presence.
Sadness, because there were many years that were lived for my glory and not the One who is alone worthy to receive honor, glory, dominion, and praise.
In the end, I realize that too much of my life did not include the allegiance and affection that only my Savior deserves. There are too many moments when self was the center of goals and plans.
Sad, because Christ deserved every moment that I lived for me, I robbed Him of what was rightfully His and His alone.
Of course, this includes the years that I lived in spiritual darkness before Christ saved me, but it also includes far too many times since coming to the light. The prayer for my soul: stop the thievery and walk like a man who has, though limited, a knowledge of the living God who will come again and judge all men.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I am happy to experience another day and I will go home to a beautiful family, and I have wonderful friends. I do have a view of the future, and God has secured it.
Now, I must decide each day to strive in it, for it, with it, and love it. I have been given so much and I want to finish my course well and follow the example of Paul, who followed the example of Jesus.
When God snatched me from the grip of sin 30 years ago, He set me on a course that I have not always traveled well. But thanks to His grace I am still a traveler!
My heartfelt, earnest, and passionate prayer is to travel better than I have previously. And the same will be true on my next birthday, and the next because no other road offers the joy and reward than the one created by the Sovereign of the Universe.
I pray that in the next phase of my life, God will use me to direct many to this road, this faith, this Savior, this gracious God who gave the supreme gift to an undeserving creature—salvation by faith and grace alone, through Christ alone!