Saturday, November 18, 2017
Fearful Aspirations
By Alfonzo Tucker (Columnist)
Published July 31, 2008

Hello World, I’ve got some surreal news to share with you all. I’m sitting in my leopard- upholstered chair with a spiral wooden armrest feeling good about the days to come. Truthfully, I hope you all feel similar today, because I’m wearing a smile that even a Cheshire cat would be jealous of. I finally finished and signed a contract with “Reef Pictures” to make my book “Noesis” into a feature film! More then you all know, my plight in life is to inspire every person on earth in a positive fashion and today I’m one step closer to accomplishing just that!

So, “The Ordeal”, how can I spread this message of inspiration and promote myself without falling pray to those who attach themselves like leeches. I want my writing, speaking and now this film to bring motivation in the truest since; as apposed to fifteen minutes of fame with a fourteen minute deficit, prior to the start. I find myself frustrated every time I speak with some one who knows about this accomplishment and states, “Boy, you about to blow up and be rich!” Now don’t get it twisted for even one hundredth of a second; I need financial security as much as anyone. But, I’ve been a witness to people who have been blessed with the ability to captivate the attention of a crowd and use that for ill gain. I will show those people that success can be achieved in an honest fashion, free from fake smiles and false expressions of sympathy. My path is set for positive gain not the sole purpose of foolish treasures. However, I’ve been pray to temptation, greed, and even suffered its bite. So, I understand the euphoria one feels when their pushing a whip that shines; I just need to remain humble and focus on what is divine.

For those of you who have family to share special moments with, “Please offer them an extra hug”! I ask this of you because I won’t be able to share this moment with Sue Ann Rhymes, my biological mother. She’ll never know that, I her son, am attempting to be a truly positive person! For those of you, who suffer from similar issues; cherish what is closest to you, even if they are moments or memories. I’ve never known Sue Ann Rhymes to recognize her scent, let alone share the joy of a significant life achievement. Anyway, no matter the stress or strife of life, look to the positive and continue along that path. Even though these words I write my sound cliché, I truly believe in “Noesis” (The Power of Applied Positive Thought). One can accomplish what ever they set their mind to achieve!

If I could bottle my feelings and allow you to posses them for a period of time you’ll know that I’m truly seated atop cloud nine yet the altitude is so high that fear weakens my stride. I have a want and a need to accomplish these goals; yet, how do I remain focused? Are my goals actually feasible? I truly believe so, yet, the demand is a life long commitment and its pace may out last the number of years I have to live. Now, when I was sixteen, I held a 25 Caliber pistol to my temple; at that point I never thought I’d live to see myself become a writer. So, to those of you with similar contemplations, put down that thought and fight for ideas, so as to help you accomplish a healthier state of mind.

So, “How do I accomplish these goals and remain true to my plight?” I hope this is not too hard for you all to believe. I truly find gratification within knowing that I bring inspiration to others! I know it’s a codependency trait for not being able to save my biological father from his drug addiction and even more so for never knowing my biological mother, but this goal keeps my sanity in check. As long as I recognize the positive and healthy aspect of my writing, speaking and this film, those who choose to take heed will obtain the motivation I am offering.  Just how do I get those with negative aspirations associated with my work to change their desires?

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