Today's column, written in 1987, is purely personal. I share it again because it reflects a reaffirmation of family, culture and early years that help to hone my values and the direction of my life's struggle.
Feelings of warmth and belonging pervaded my recent visit to New Orleans. I moved to Los Angeles at the age of 8 but returned to New Orleans briefly in 1950 to attend Xavier University. It had been over thirty-five years since I'd visited my native city.
The trip was overwhelming. The world of my childhood was instantly recognizable, memories had faded only slightly. My family has deep roots in New Orleans, especially in the 7th Ward. Endearing friendships, even though my immediate family left years ago, created an indelible affinity with the Crescent City. (It was mind boggling to have an 80-year-old woman, who I had not seen in forty-five years, not only recognize me, but call me by my first name.)
The 7th Ward during my early childhood was predominantly Creole and Catholic. Originally, the term referred to persons of French and Spanish ancestry, but has long since described mixed-race Blacks from New Orleans and elsewhere in Louisiana, many of whom are light-skinned with straight hair and Caucasian features. Creoles were, and still are, independent, even clannish and many maintain a certain distance from whites as well as other Blacks.
My visit was filled with nostalgia and camaraderie and I was totally unprepared for the intensity of New Orleans' impact and many things had never strayed far from my consciousness. Streets, even street signs, triggered a host of memories and feelings.......whimsical recall juxtaposed to serious, meaningful images; Corpus Christi Church and School, a huge Kindergarten room with a very high ceiling's celestial eyes peering down on every child.......Sister Angeli, Mother David, lay teachers, Ms. Francois and Ms. Hickey; Cheeky Black, father Casserly......long brown envelopes with Coca-Cola pencils, rulers and ink blotters.
Mardi Gras, "Carnival," was a time of conflicting merriment and vendettas: bicycles with crepe paper-covered wheels; all manner of costumes, Zulus, Rex, spontaneous laughter, multi-colors, waves of color, fantasy, dancing and dreaming. Mardi Gras has become increasingly commercialized. Reportedly, many New Orleans residents no longer attend parades and other festivities, feeling that it now represents a kind of no-holds barred promiscuity and mean spirited wildness.
My sense of family was heightened and affinity and warmth among old friends was almost indescribable. I had vivid recollections my mother's giving and sharing, and families and neighbors "looking out for each other." The Great Depression was tough on everybody, especially Blacks. Yet, close bonds and sharing meager resources defined and sealed relationships in the 7th Ward. During the 1930s, many dreams were never realized; one of my brothers was unable to find work with a degree in pharmacy because of the lethal combination of the Depression and racism.
Older folks in the 7th Ward spoke French and "Creole" fluently, but most did not teach it to their children. They usually spoke to each other in French so that the children could not understand them which was tragic because a second language immeasurably enriches a child's life.
As mentioned, Creoles were self-contained and not particularly interested in relating to whites or other Blacks. Yes, they did discriminate based on skin color and/or hair. Straight hair was "good hair", kinky hair," bad hair", with negative connotations far beyond hair. Of course, Creoles were not unique in this regard-Americans, including Blacks, have always made such distinctions and, still do. One of the most insidious aspects of racism is that on the color continuum, the closer to white, the better- and better off, one is. Culture and religion contributed to Creole's clannishness; they were overwhelmingly Catholic, and generally, did look different from other Blacks, many were, and are, indistinguishable from whites.
I was engulfed in a stream of consciousness-people, places, events.....Corpus Christi Church, "backatown," Aubry Street, First Communion, the Circle Show, Two Sisters, the Pentagon, Anybody's, Haspel's, Bruxelles, Crescent Pharmacy, the neutral ground, St. Bernard Market, the Autocrat Club, beer parlors, long bread, Jax and Falstaff Beer, Xavier Prep and Xavier University.
Family memories: Uncle Robert Aubry and son, Edwin's Sunday visits after my father died; Nunc Henri and Taunte Mellie, Aunt Georgia's house with its big rain-catching cistern and old coffee grinder; Uncle Bud's daily meanderings at markets on St. Claude Avenue; fritters, snowballs, icebergs, my brother Leon's barber shop and ice cream parlor- years later, his bowling alley.... Liuzza Bakery, Nick the Greek's sherbet, "chinees", (marbles); skatin' trucks; Belfield's Drugstore; the Astoria Hotel on Rampart Street (my cousin Irma kept the books); heavy summer rain, thunder, lightning; mud for walking in and playing stick up; cold winters with frozen pipes; hot water heated on the stove and blocks of ice.
Kaleidoscopic memories continued, with family remembrances the clearest: Mama searching to find her way after daddy died; my seven brothers, struggling to order their lives in the midst of the Depression, but each unfailingly helping Mama.
Conversations and incidents of early childhood also burst into consciousness: Uncle Albert, a physician, began practicing shortly after the turn of the 20th Century; Uncle Numa, a pharmacist who moved to Chicago; Uncle Charles and my father were letter carriers-all were active in the church and community.
My Uncles, Paul and Henry Cambre, on my mothers' side, sometimes worked together. Paul, Uncle Boy was stern and authoritative, Uncle Henry (Nunc Henri), mild-mannered and easygoing. On a job, their squabbles were endless but funny. My grandparents, on both sides, died long before I was born but their legacy was kept alive in family discourse and nostalgia.
Recurring thoughts included my early confusion and questions about segregation-sitting behind the "screen" on streetcars and buses, segregated theaters--actually, segregated everything. And I could not understand contradictions in the Catholic Church like expounding its doctrine and banal Catechism while tacitly embracing racism and segregation like all other Southern institutions.
The visit home was a fulfilling reminder of how fortunate I am to be Black and part of a proud, supportive family and culture. It reaffirmed a legacy of love and caring for which I will be forever grateful.
Larry Aubry can be contacted at email